This will be a tough blog to write, but I feel that I owe it to the readers of my Weighty Wednesday blog.
I've been talking the talk, but not walking the walk.
To be honest with you all, I have been slacking for almost the last year. I fell off the weight loss wagon a long time ago. Maintaining weight loss is so very hard and it's too easy to keep adding food to one's diet until we are in the same predicament we were in first place-- OVERWEIGHT
I haven't been getting my daily healthy guideline items marked off my list.
I haven't been watching my portions.
I've been drinking too many diet sodas, eggnog and wine.
I've been snacking on my candy, namely peanut brittle, . . . and I still have seven flavors to mold before they get boxed up and delivered.
And just recently, I haven't been walking due to the ice on my walking trail.
I've gained more weight than I want to talk about. I'll 'fess up to it next week, but the reality is still to raw for me to actually say the amount of weight gain.
But reality hit me hard yesterday when I actually contemplated putting on my larger pair of jeans.
This is so NOT going to happen!
Yes, I have two pairs of size 8 jeans hiding in my closet, but I really don't want to resort to wearing them simply because I have ZERO will power to stop myself from stuffing my face.
All of us face our demons in our own way. Many times we listen to those demons and indulge to the point of excess, but the problems arise when we continue to listen to them on a daily basis.
Which happened to me.
When I was at goal and on maintenance for the first six months of the year, I got lazy. I would eat a little too much, or slack on my healthy guidelines there was no real consequence . . . at first. I stayed within my goal's weight range.
But after awhile, starting in July, I had to pay my dues for the overindulgence, and now the weight is slipping back on like an actor's fat suit.
With Christmas around the corner, I know I'll be getting some goodies in my stocking, plus the broken leftover candy . . .
It will be tough to resist.
Now that I've acknowledged that I'm not the sparkling mentor that you think I am, I can climb back into the driver's seat of my own reality and take control of my eating issues.
It will be hard, but I know I can do it.
Because I've done it before.
All it takes is conscientious eating, portion control, and getting my daily healthy guidelines in.
I hope y'all will realize that I am simply human. I made a mistake and have a weight gain to show for it.
But I can fix this.
I hope you got my back just as much as I have your back with my pep talk blogs. I might need a little encouragement to get started down the right path again.
True confessions are over for today.
Later, Peeps!
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6/20/12
Weighty Wednesday -- Reality Check
Happy 20th Anniversary, Sweetie!!
Okay, so last week I reached my goal weight.
So, now what?
Well, the path doesn't stop when one reaches a weight-loss goal. In fact, now there are a few choices to make.
Throughout this year-long journey, I have had ups and downs, literally and figuratively. *snork* I've wound my way through the dark forest, traversed steep ridges, tripped over my own feet and fallen into holes of my own making, but with one last bit of strength I persevered and SUCCEEDED!
Only to have a reality check shoved into my face.
It ain't over, people. This fat lady may not be fat any longer, but she sure can't sing either.
Just because I reached one goal, it doesn't mean I can relax my guard. There will always be a path ahead of me, whether it's the easy downhill road that leads to the slide of where I was one year ago, or the unknown course that leads into the murky woods where the path doesn't look easy, level, or without challenges.
Which path do I choose?
I'm choosing the unknown path.
During last year I've been up and down on my weight, but overall I've lost. It's been slow and I would have incredible decreases of weight with equally impressive rebounds.
And that was what happened last week--I regained 3.2 of the 4.4 pounds I had lost. I was still right at my goal weight, but it hammered home to me that this isn't a diet. This isn't a quick fix or even a long term fix.
This is my LIFE. A healthier life that I prefer to lead.
Is it going to be easy?
Heck, no. It will be challenging in every possible way. I'll still have my trigger foods to deal with and I'll periodically have to weigh and measure to keep my portions the correct size.
But I'm good with that, because I intend to LIVE LIFE to the fullest, which means there must always be give and take.
What is life without its joy and celebration?
One big drag.
The key is to celebrate OCCASIONALLY and not daily.
I think I'm up to the challenge. . . . but the question is, are you?
Later, Peeps!
4/10/12
Weighty Wednesday (on Tuesday) --Guilt
I already wrote a post to go up on Wednesday, but I felt this post is pertinent;
therefore, I must share it with you.
When I started on this weight-loss journey, I felt that I had it all figured out. I knew how to focus. I had strong motivation to do it right this time. I was very successful with my weight loss until last November when I fell off the wagon and my weight loss slowed to a trickle.
I had that figured out, too.
I had an answer for everything
But last night--well, actually, it wasn’t last night, but 4:30 this morning--I finally figured out what got me into this overweight mess to start with.
It was guilt eating.
Not guilt over what I ate--that came later--it was the guilt of letting someone I love eat alone.
Last night I ate dinner, not because I was hungry, but because I didn’t want my hubby to eat alone. If I felt this way, I should have simply eaten a salad, but I didn’t. He had gone to the trouble of making enchiladas (I had made the filling and sauce last week for his sister and kids, but it didn’t get eaten), and I didn’t want to disappoint him . . . so I ate two beef enchiladas. Ugh.
We also ate after 6 PM.
Again, another bad thing for me.
What am I going to do about it?
Over the next couple of weeks, I am seriously tracking again, writing down everything that is put into my mouth. This is the only way I’ll reach my elusive goal weight.
And I’ll have to learn to say, “No, thanks, I’m not hungry. But I’ll keep you company while you eat.”
Thanks for letting me share.
Later, Peeps!
When I started on this weight-loss journey, I felt that I had it all figured out. I knew how to focus. I had strong motivation to do it right this time. I was very successful with my weight loss until last November when I fell off the wagon and my weight loss slowed to a trickle.
I had that figured out, too.
I had an answer for everything
But last night--well, actually, it wasn’t last night, but 4:30 this morning--I finally figured out what got me into this overweight mess to start with.
It was guilt eating.
Not guilt over what I ate--that came later--it was the guilt of letting someone I love eat alone.
Last night I ate dinner, not because I was hungry, but because I didn’t want my hubby to eat alone. If I felt this way, I should have simply eaten a salad, but I didn’t. He had gone to the trouble of making enchiladas (I had made the filling and sauce last week for his sister and kids, but it didn’t get eaten), and I didn’t want to disappoint him . . . so I ate two beef enchiladas. Ugh.
We also ate after 6 PM.
Again, another bad thing for me.
What am I going to do about it?
Over the next couple of weeks, I am seriously tracking again, writing down everything that is put into my mouth. This is the only way I’ll reach my elusive goal weight.
And I’ll have to learn to say, “No, thanks, I’m not hungry. But I’ll keep you company while you eat.”
Thanks for letting me share.
Later, Peeps!
4/4/12
Weighty Wednesday -- Gardening
Bummer.
My only excuse is that I did fly to Atlanta to visit family and attend my niece's baby shower. While I imbibed in wine, beer and margaritas . . . and a few shots of Grand Marnier and Irish Whisky, I was also very naughty with the bite-sized lemon thingy's and pound cake, which gave me an overall weight gain despite walking a hilly terrain 3 out of 4 days for 40-50minutes.
*whew* That was a mouthful of a sentence!
I had fun, but now we are rolling down to the end of candy season with the final event--EASTER. Yeah, I just spent $54 on candy and stuffed bunnies for the Easter baskets.
So, now is the time to double time your exercise!
But this doesn't mean going to the smelly gym twice a day. . .
It means gardening!
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| Mini rose--Chasing Rainbows |
I have 26 rose bushes (climbers, floribundas, minis and micro-minis) and this is the first rose of the season.
In February, I did all the basic spring cleaning gardening chores: cutting back perennials, roses, grasses and other plants that die all the way to the roots. I cleaned up the beds, weeded, fertilized and hubster mulched the beds.
When you do this, all you have to do is wander around the garden, admiring your beautiful plants, while picking the random weed or two.
Here are a few before (March 12) and after (April 3)pictures:
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| creeping phlox (blue) |
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| creeping phlox (blue), hydrangea (corner). butterfly bush (rt-slightly trunked up), crepe myrtles (lft) |
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| crepe myrtle tree, Batik iris, rose bush to far left and center (red tipped) |
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| same pic, different angle. |
Carpet rose is on left. Batik iris between sprinkler head and crepe myrtle, and the red tipped rose, Moonlight Scentsation (smells WONDERFUL) is on the right.
And the back corner under two Loblolly pine trees:
Daffodils are still in bloom
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| cloudy day, but you can see the phlox in bloom |
Later, Peeps!
11/2/11
Weighty Wednesday--Weight Gain Confirmed
I came so close to not even weighing in this week. I knew I would have a gain (see Monday's blog). How could I not gain?
1) I experimented making shot glass sized pumpkin cheesecakes. Yeah, hubby took the leftovers to work, but I had to taste test them to make certain I wouldn't kill anyone.
2) baked cookies for a Halloween party my kiddo went to. Okay, admittedly making 6 types of cookies was a little over the edge, but I haven't baked in so long that I was really enjoying it. Plus, I had to taste test the cookies before I allow strangers to eat them, right?
3) Okay, I went a little crazy with the baking when I made my Blue Ribbon Cinnamon Rolls. In my defense, I have only eaten one out of the entire batch.
4) Hubby opened the Halloween candy to mix the various varieties together. He did this on Sunday night. Lordy, next time I need to tell him NOT to do it UNTIL the kids come to the door! Yes, I ate more Tootsie Rolls and Dots than is humanly possible. It wasn't until I was giving out candy did I hit the chocolate stuff. Not a stellar moment in my life. But he took the rest of the candy to work and I won't touch my kidlet's candy, so I'm good.
5) I didn't track my food. I kept track of it until afternoon every day, but then it all fell apart. Which means I ate more points than allowed from about 4 PM onward.
Okay, confession is over with, what was the damage?
Net weight gain of +1.6 lbs. Not as bad as I expected, which was 2 lbs.
My weight loss total is back to 30.8 lbs. This is still a good loss, but the key is not to have another gain week. There were only two things that I did right:
1) I walked daily--with darkness falling earlier, I haven't been able to get my second walk in as much as I would have liked.
2) I drank my water
That's it. I didn't get all my fruits and veggies, instead I substituted 'other' stuff, and my intestinal track paid the price. Trust me, you do NOT want further explainations!
Here's my plan:
1) force myself to track my food intake/exercise
2) drink at least 6 glasses of water/day
3) eat 5-6 servings of fruit and veg daily
4) remove sugar, flour and fried foods from my diet . . . again. I had been slowly adding these to my intake, but now I must start over at the beginning to get on track again.
For me, this is a good start point plan.
Life happens.
It's up to us to adjust and rethink how we approach the challenges surrounding our weight loss.
Just like life, this is a journey NOT a destination and sometimes we lose our way for a little bit. Every year, Halloween will happen. Holidays will happen. Celebrations will happen.
What we must do is take everything we learn, and what we learn from others, and apply the techniques that will help us on our journey. What works for me might not work for you, but all you have to do is be open to try new methods or suggestions.
Here's to virtually seeing less of you next week!
Later, Peeps!
1) I experimented making shot glass sized pumpkin cheesecakes. Yeah, hubby took the leftovers to work, but I had to taste test them to make certain I wouldn't kill anyone.
2) baked cookies for a Halloween party my kiddo went to. Okay, admittedly making 6 types of cookies was a little over the edge, but I haven't baked in so long that I was really enjoying it. Plus, I had to taste test the cookies before I allow strangers to eat them, right?
3) Okay, I went a little crazy with the baking when I made my Blue Ribbon Cinnamon Rolls. In my defense, I have only eaten one out of the entire batch.
4) Hubby opened the Halloween candy to mix the various varieties together. He did this on Sunday night. Lordy, next time I need to tell him NOT to do it UNTIL the kids come to the door! Yes, I ate more Tootsie Rolls and Dots than is humanly possible. It wasn't until I was giving out candy did I hit the chocolate stuff. Not a stellar moment in my life. But he took the rest of the candy to work and I won't touch my kidlet's candy, so I'm good.
5) I didn't track my food. I kept track of it until afternoon every day, but then it all fell apart. Which means I ate more points than allowed from about 4 PM onward.
Okay, confession is over with, what was the damage?
Net weight gain of +1.6 lbs. Not as bad as I expected, which was 2 lbs.
My weight loss total is back to 30.8 lbs. This is still a good loss, but the key is not to have another gain week. There were only two things that I did right:
1) I walked daily--with darkness falling earlier, I haven't been able to get my second walk in as much as I would have liked.
2) I drank my water
That's it. I didn't get all my fruits and veggies, instead I substituted 'other' stuff, and my intestinal track paid the price. Trust me, you do NOT want further explainations!
Here's my plan:
1) force myself to track my food intake/exercise
2) drink at least 6 glasses of water/day
3) eat 5-6 servings of fruit and veg daily
4) remove sugar, flour and fried foods from my diet . . . again. I had been slowly adding these to my intake, but now I must start over at the beginning to get on track again.
For me, this is a good start point plan.
Life happens.
It's up to us to adjust and rethink how we approach the challenges surrounding our weight loss.
Just like life, this is a journey NOT a destination and sometimes we lose our way for a little bit. Every year, Halloween will happen. Holidays will happen. Celebrations will happen.
What we must do is take everything we learn, and what we learn from others, and apply the techniques that will help us on our journey. What works for me might not work for you, but all you have to do is be open to try new methods or suggestions.
Here's to virtually seeing less of you next week!
Later, Peeps!
10/31/11
Eek!--I gained weight!
But that isn't really too surprising, now is it??
It's 'unofficial' weight, since I simply weighed myself at home, but my scale at home is pretty darn close to the official scale. I won't be able to weigh-in today since the hubster needs my car to transport his costume to work. No, I can't what it is yet. And no, I can't post pictures yet.
But I will tomorrow.
Anyhoo, back on topic--
Baking 6 types of cookies (final names: Lemony Goblin Brains, Werewolf Poop, Spicy Witch Cackles, Choco-Spider Guts, Minty Fairy Farts, and Cinnamon Toadstools), making and eating cinnamon rolls, and experimenting with a pumpkin custard cheesecake, is it any wonder that I increased the poundage? Only by 2 pounds, but that's enough to kick my booty into gear!
If you didn't think I would gain weight then you were in fairyland along with Timmy Turner and the Fairy Oddparents.
So, what to do?
1) walk . . . and walk some more
2) drink lots and lots of water
3) fruit and veggies are my friends
4) document EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth
Basically, I need to revert back to the first few weeks at WW.
Boy, it'll be hard considering I have over TWENTY (yes, 20) pounds of candy to hand out to trick-or-treaters!
Luckily the rest of the nosh will go to work with the hubster, just like all the cookies did today!
Happy Halloween!
Later, Peeps!
It's 'unofficial' weight, since I simply weighed myself at home, but my scale at home is pretty darn close to the official scale. I won't be able to weigh-in today since the hubster needs my car to transport his costume to work. No, I can't what it is yet. And no, I can't post pictures yet.
But I will tomorrow.
Anyhoo, back on topic--
Baking 6 types of cookies (final names: Lemony Goblin Brains, Werewolf Poop, Spicy Witch Cackles, Choco-Spider Guts, Minty Fairy Farts, and Cinnamon Toadstools), making and eating cinnamon rolls, and experimenting with a pumpkin custard cheesecake, is it any wonder that I increased the poundage? Only by 2 pounds, but that's enough to kick my booty into gear!
If you didn't think I would gain weight then you were in fairyland along with Timmy Turner and the Fairy Oddparents.
So, what to do?
1) walk . . . and walk some more
2) drink lots and lots of water
3) fruit and veggies are my friends
4) document EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth
Basically, I need to revert back to the first few weeks at WW.
Boy, it'll be hard considering I have over TWENTY (yes, 20) pounds of candy to hand out to trick-or-treaters!
Luckily the rest of the nosh will go to work with the hubster, just like all the cookies did today!
Happy Halloween!
Later, Peeps!
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