Weighty Wednesday (on Tuesday) --Guilt

I already wrote a post to go up on Wednesday, but I felt this post is pertinent; therefore, I must share it with you.  

When I started on this weight-loss journey, I felt that I had it all figured out. I knew how to focus. I had strong motivation to do it right this time. I was very successful with my weight loss until last November when I fell off the wagon and my weight loss slowed to a trickle.

I had that figured out, too.  

I had an answer for everything

But last night--well, actually, it wasn’t last night, but 4:30 this morning--I finally figured out what got me into this overweight mess to start with.

It was guilt eating.

Not guilt over what I ate--that came later--it was the guilt of letting someone I love eat alone.

Last night I ate dinner, not because I was hungry, but because I didn’t want my hubby to eat alone. If I felt this way, I should have simply eaten a salad, but I didn’t. He had gone to the trouble of making enchiladas (I had made the filling and sauce last week for his sister and kids, but it didn’t get eaten), and I didn’t want to disappoint him . . . so I ate two beef enchiladas. Ugh.

We also ate after 6 PM.

Again, another bad thing for me.

What am I going to do about it?

Over the next couple of weeks, I am seriously tracking again, writing down everything that is put into my mouth. This is the only way I’ll reach my elusive goal weight.

And I’ll have to learn to say, “No, thanks, I’m not hungry. But I’ll keep you company while you eat.”

Thanks for letting me share.

Later, Peeps!

Shower Epiphany

I don't know how other writers get their epiphanies *lightbulb*, but there's something about being in the shower that gets my mind churning.

So, to that end, I was in the shower this morning, thinking about my GNOME cover--my cover designer Laura is on the final tweaks--when the lighbulb moment hit me. In the series, a medallion plays a minor role and Laura designed a medallion for me.  It will be placed in the O of Goblin logo.  Anyhoo, Laura couldn't make it work as I had written it, so she moved the dragon image to the top of the medallion. No biggie, I'll just change it in the story.

This morning I was thinking about the medallion: a dragon with its wings spread on top, while underneath a unicorn and phoenix face each other.

Oh. My.  Gosh!  *lightbulb*  I can't tell you the entirety of my lightbulb moment, but I can tell you that there will be a book or two down the road that will be based on that one thought.  OMG! It ties everything together.  And no, I'm not telling, but if you read GNOME (Book One of THE GOBLIN'S APPRENTICE) you will probably get an inkling of what I intend to do.

I'm a seat-of-the-pants type of writer.  I get an idea and, as I'm writing, the characters reveal themselves to me.  Sometimes I'll put something into a story, but don't have the foggiest idea why, until much, much later when it's revealed to me.

That said, I wrote GNOME over two years ago.  The medallion emerged in the story and yes, has a place in Books 2 & 3, but I didn't realize the deeper meaning of it until today.

Wow . . . I love the way my mind works things out.

Gotta get to work.  I've already chopped roughly 20% of GNOME--yep, about 8000 words, which is a lot of words on a <50,000 word story.

Later, Peeps!